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Friday, January 28, 2011
as soon as i closed my eyes, sadness overwhelms me. no actually i don't even have to close these eyes, it overwhelms me whenever im alone, whenever im not distracted by something. why does it affect me so much, to be misunderstood that way, whatever happens to the old me who wont care shit what others think of me. im trying to understand, trying to figure out where i go wrong, trying to figure out my mistake. but i have no idea, and i wish you would tell me so at least i can say sorry. couldn't sleep last night cause of this shit ): Wednesday, January 26, 2011  i am happy that you're happy ((: its good to see you all smiley again ((: tomorrow is gonna be one of those silly shitty day again. im starting to hate going to school.. all these shitty people i have to deal with every single day. okay no, im the shitty one. Monday, January 24, 2011 are we drifting apart? cause of the things we choose to keep inside or maybe of the unspoken words. it seems like i spend most of my time wondering, trying to distract myself from whats unknown. or just basically spending time thinking of ways to cheer you up. ha ha bloody ha, what did i do at the end of the day? NOTHING. cause im lame like that, dint know what to do and how to cheer up. you see that's the problem. i spent the whole day today and almost everyday for the past few weeks thinking of ways to cheer people up. a lot of people. the assbutt part of it is the fact that i dint carry it out. Saturday, January 22, 2011 I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got Friday, January 21, 2011  i cant thank you enough (: don't really want to eat it cause its so pretty pretty in a box with golden ribbons (: feels like my birthday, receiving random gifts like this ((: Thursday, January 20, 2011 Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for? Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for? When they know they're your heart And you know you were their armour And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm them But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you? And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you? What happens when you become the main source of their pain? And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain Just smile back. Wednesday, January 19, 2011 dearest LJJ. please dont be sad, everything will be fine (: please cheer up okay, i will treat you bubble tea and salads and whatever else you want..                      Tuesday, January 18, 2011 I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, Or tell you that. But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that? I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were Monday, January 17, 2011  oh hi. should have blogged about this on friday (: mom bought a box of cupcakes on friday and they have fresh cream on it (: i dont even need dinner with them by my side. haha wow that was real venting horh (: lab management UT tomorrow, told Huda i studied but honestly, i glanced through the 6Ps. Thursday, January 13, 2011 oh hi. SLEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!! . Wednesday, January 12, 2011 mind choked. if there's one thing i hate in this whole wide world, its someone staring at me. i don't even hate smokers, okay it has nothing to do with shit hoh? i just hate standing there wanting to talk to you and someone stares at me like im some big fuck. assfuck do i look like i care how i look? just stop making me look like im a fucking desperate ass clinging on to him. gosh. what are you, his bodyguard? or maybe i should just forget about approaching you in the future. just fucking walk straight and lets just pretend we don't know each other. im extremely tired. mentally tired. tired for trying. tired for caring. tired of thinking. extremely tired of thinking. don't even have the appetite to eat. bought bread to feed the birds at Sembawang, perhaps. i want to go home, put my head under the pillows and disappear. fucking disappear. okay the more i type, the more i feel like crying. fuck PMS-ing. fuck cramps. ): hate this post. Tuesday, January 11, 2011 hello hello (: im pleased to inform myself that im done with genetics and can now focus on neurobiology. Test in two days straight, that's beyond sick aye. mi went out for a much deserved break with her friends yesterday. they went to the Orchid Garden and then to the cinemas to watch Guillever's Travel. adorable hohhh ((: so nice to know that she enjoyed herself(: she even bought me two charmed bracelets, they are gorgeou, i cant thank her enough.. i cannot believe im done with genetics, seriously. i was stressing on it just a few minutes ago ): plus the modules are getting tougher. haiyoo, duuuuh moment. we are ending our semester soon and i have mixed feelings about it. its like i want it to end but i don't. tssk, whats the future gonna be like, i wonder. i have a lot of things in my mind tonight, i mean a lot. for example there's this particular one thing i wonder. who my real friends are.. i mean, have you ever wondered who will stick by you through everything and who would walk away from you the moment their lives changed? who's willing to do the things you're willing to do for them? there's no such test for those kinda things, i guess only time can tell. heh ((: Sunday, January 9, 2011 Your promises, they look like lies Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife Saturday, January 8, 2011 Behind those eyes lies the truth and grief. Behind those beautiful smiles I've seen tragedy. Beyond these clouds you can hide all your tear. Beyond this world you'll be safe from their wicked fears. And in their hearts they fear your demands. You know their minds won't accept you, they'll never understand. Friday, January 7, 2011 ooooh. im supposed to be studying, with genetics and neurobio one after another but im stoning instead. browsing through tumblr like a mad goose, and not even reblogging anything. im a lame ass, im supposed to revive this blog not kill it. Tuesday, January 4, 2011  A picture began circulating in November. It should be “The Picture of the Year,”… or perhaps, “Picture of the Decade.” It won’t be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the U.S. paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it. The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner. The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb. Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb. During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger. Dr. Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile. The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, “Hand of Hope.” The text explaining the picture begins, “The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother’s uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.” Little Samuel’s mother said they “wept for days” when they saw the picture. She said, “The photo reminds us pregnancy isn’t about disability or an illness, it’s about a little person” Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful. Now see the actual picture, and it is awesome…incredible….and hey, pass it on! The world needs to see this one. |
 No red meat and i hate fizzy drinks.i don't like Saving The Earth campaigns, i think that's just hypocritical bullshit. deaf inducing voice, protection needed. passionate about animals :3 i love books and coffee, big time. " family first before anything, that's the rule i would like to hold on to. My Mother. My Sister. My Brother. They matter, and i can't imagine not having them in my life. cheesy? i know, i am cheesy as hell. i treasure my friends a lot, if you play them out, i might smash your face. i won't try to please you, if you like me,lets be friends, if you don't, you just don't☮ ☜♥☞ oooh. and then there's him a very very important person. Existence very much valued.☜♥☞ the people. Airin. | Allie.| Edward.| Feeqs.| Fyt.|Gee. | April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 Designer : Chili. x o x o |