Tame The Tornado

I don’t understand. Why do I keep losing everyone?
I don't understand. Why I'm still here, thinking of why you do some stuff you do.
i don't understand. why i still care.

HA HA bloody HA.
immensely stupid, i don't understand most of the decisions i chose. seriously.

spamming Diniy's wall with hatred. using bombastic words to get to him. I WON WON WON WON!

come to think of it it's quite worrying. ): why are you so fucked up inside. sighs~
school was fine, ended pretty late today, long winded faci today.. kept repeating things we already learned two semesters ago. i guess she's kinda new so, we gotta let it go.
i feel a need to vent out and just cry. haha~ like really cry it all out. all these things I've been keeping inside, i just want it out that way. cause i can't do it anymore. no i don't blame it on pms. i really don't.
I'm done. (:

urmm yes, I'm definitely dying.
i'll be real honest okay, fuck the Club and fuck SLA fiesta. i have better things to do and think of.. gosh i wish i can just let go of the whole thing and ignore all the phone calls and text messages. biggest jerk action definitely. but seriously everything is just too last minute and i really really don't care whether or not there's any potential new members. you can't even handle us MCs -.-"
lets just say I'm still trying to figure out what the hell happened last Thursday, everyone was being way too kind. and there's of course the FB message.. hrmm.. i don't think you're reading this anymore but that was very very random. i mean aren't we cool? besides i really don't get why you chose to apologize last Thursday. and guess what? i thought you already apologized before? no? haha
you know while i was reading that message i was just thinking, maybe just maybe too haughtily, that i don't want your apology. i want the people who judged me and is still judging me every time they pass by me, to apologize. yup, i want that. cause the fact that none of my friends judged you and hell they can't even be bothered by your existence makes me feel like crap that i have to deal with them judging me. blame it on my ego. haha but neh i shall just keep it here. we don't need a whole new semester of DRAMA. besides, come on, we have all moved on (: or maybe its just me and my friends? okay no, I'm just saying.
work sucks two days straight of sucky work. okay maybe today is a little better (: yesterday was hell. you know you're working for shit when your supervisor is a bias racist. and and when your supervisor just wont stop comparing the fact that your mom holds a higher position at your workplace. HA HA BLOODY HA. well taught her one lesson yesterday, that is TO NEVER EVER mention my mom as being the cause of any stupid mistakes i do, the cause or has any relation to it. with the rate that the ass is going i think she might just struck a heart attack or something. PPPFFFFT. okay I'm not praying for it to happen, please God, I'm just rambling.

ENJOYING ROCKMELT THROUGHLY THANKS TO TERENCE YAPPEDY YAP YAP THE PARTY BOYYY((:
haha okay so its probably an old thing but seriously, lets just say after mastering Rockmelt, it is a true JOY! okay two HUGE things happened in the evening (: first of went to visit Tok Ayah and the rest since Feeqs is gonna start learning Quran real soon (: what a joy, i miss them so much. get to meet Bro Yan, which isn't much of a joy since i met him like last last month? haha~ dint get to meet Sis Sulas since she just got back from a night shift at the hospital. ):
then then guess who texted me! Sis Soffy.. what a night, such a joy talking to her again.. i miss going to her house for tuition. haha for maths, physics and chemistry if im not mistaken ((: aah, i need to find time to meet her (: oooh and someone's now attached to a Wahab boy, ancient name but looks cool enough for me, biking around and such (:
that humongous Diniy is a big bully. annoying like hell and still can accuse me of annoying him. still can accuse me of "touching" him. AS IF! haha the only moment i "touched" him was when i punched his HUGE arms. please eeh. cheering and such is not cool eeh.. bloody hell.

worth staring for hours aye?
okay so yesterday was awesome, today is/was awesome and tomorrow is off day so im telling you YAY! there's two annoying Diniys and two wonderful Felicias in my class. so im preparing myself and i've decided to call my felicia, Fel and my Diniy, Nifail. okay eeww, not my Diniy, more like Lisa's Diniy.. hehe (: a lot of whack job in my class, and of course there's the whole clan of crazy arse awesomeness : Airin, Cindy, Khaliesah and Marilou (: khal in my class is a plus plus point ^^
i can't believe im having Aliza again. i guess she's not that bad, i mean trip to India definitely changed the way i look at her but i still can't believe she's teaching me again. spent the whole day at lab today regardless of some protests. so whats new, we ended very very very late.. crap everyone kept whining the whole day, sleepy sleepy sleepy~ haha
lecturing someone about staying healthy. just between me and you, every single thing i was telling him was a HA HA BLOODY HA, AS IF! i don't even practice what i preached.

To some, the cigarette is a portable therapist. ~Terri Guillemets

oh well, another one bites the dust..

truly enjoyed myself yesterday, explored a lot of new things and i thank you for that ♥ we have to go back for more (:

i cant decide whether or not to re-follow Harry :/ i mean im a fan and re-following sucks but i just cant ignore his comments that night. -.-" why am i even posting this.

damn school reopens next week, sucks :/ im not ready.. i still want that break.. and damn, FYP.. and damn, clinical chemistry, first day of that module and we already have practical. :/ gotta focus next semester, i would like to increase that GPA very much, yes very very much ((:

something i need to instill in this head of mine. I've always tried to shun these people whenever i don't have a penny to spare or if im afraid ( they can be a lil aggressive sometimes ).. maybe all they are asking is a smile. gee, im thinking too much..

my mame has grown into Lovelitchi ((: it looks like a lamb!

" Did you know when you dream about a person, that person went to sleep thinking of you? Did you know when the person you like looks at you and then looks down, they’re crazy about you? Did you know that when a person looks at you directly in the eyes they love you more than you think? Did you know when that person looks at you a lot they can’t live without you? Did you know when they leave, they say bye too much because they don’t want to let you go? "

The above statement is seriously bullshit. maybe when you're in love you might probably believe it.. just saying (:

a lot of songs running through my mind, like my own installed playlist.. scaring the sheit out of me! its like a mixture of genres, of different ages but def a playlist.. i'll list some : Space Bound - Eminem ft some unknown pet, 1983 - Neon Trees, Creep - Radiohead, Words - Bee Gees and Linkin Park - Numb. freaky, i know.

meet my evolved mametchi egg.. now, shell-tchi. very hideous. hahaha (:

this is my TAMAGOTCHI! okay this is not my picture. LOL, i'll take mine the next morning, im just excited, i've gotta to show the world! say hello to Mametchi... sis chose the black one.. i know right, it is so adorable~

begged my sis last night and convinced her that i will take care of it like for reaal <3 and she bought me one just now.. dawwwww. i love you sis (:

named my pet Mame, and its sleeping now.. been playing games with it.. can't wait for it to wake up !

im pretty sure of it (:

well hello world, i yam back from India. i guess i don't have anything BAD to say about the place. okay maybe just the traffic or or or urmm, the urine stench everywhere. people pee everywhere there. even on walls with a " Do Not Urinate Here" sign. LOL

enjoyed my time shopping, meditating ( haha attempt number 2 failed ) and of course learning (: they are actually nice people, willing to share information and pass on the knowledge. come to think of it, there's some things Singaporeans should really learn from them. i guess, that's it? heh (:

say Amin (:

dear god, please make him better. the school reopens in two weeks time. if you were to ever place me in the same class as him, i wouldn't want to see a bandaged hand. and its pretty serious, so im praying hard that it will go away. hopefully it's just false alarm.
dear god, please also make Huda's daddy better. she's pretty stressed up about it. i want her to be happy, so please make him better, take the stroke away ):
dear god, please let the first day of school be awesome for Malsy. i don't think she will have any trouble making new friends but just make it awesome for her okay (:\
dear god, please make my mum, sis and bro happy every single day of the rest of their entire lives ( okay maybe that's asking for too much ) especially my mum, cause she deserves the best.
dear god, please allow me to meet my best friend before school reopens cause i miss her like madgoose! ): ooh and make the outing with the rest of my best buddies happen too please..
dear god, please help me be a better person. i would really like to restart my life and forget everything, but since i can't, just help me a better person.

thank you, i larve you (:

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No red meat and i hate fizzy drinks.
i don't like Saving The Earth campaigns, i think that's just hypocritical bullshit.
deaf inducing voice, protection needed.
passionate about animals :3

i love books and coffee, big time.
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family first before anything, that's the rule i would like to hold on to.
My Mother. My Sister. My Brother. They matter, and i can't imagine not having them in my life.
cheesy? i know, i am cheesy as hell.

i treasure my friends a lot, if you play them out, i might smash your face.
i won't try to please you, if you like me,lets be friends, if you don't, you just don't☮

☜♥☞ oooh. and then there's him a very very important person. Existence very much valued.☜♥☞

the people.
Airin. | Allie.| Edward.| Feeqs.| Fyt.|Gee. |

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